I was shocked that I actually slept the night before my big surgery. I only woke once to look at the clock and then drift back to sleep not even thinking once that in the morning I would send my girls off to school then venture off to the hospital to give a final goodbye to my breasts.
Its amazing to me how much breast seem to be a part of who we are as women and especially me. I personally have always felt my best features were my legs and my breast. I began wearing a bra in 5th grade and very much remember the boys constantly pulling on my back bra strap and slapping it on my back. As I approached junior high I gained the nick name "peaches" all related to the size of my chest on such a small frame not even 5' tall and 100 pounds. I would constantly have boys say to me the line from Steve Miller Band: "I really love your peaches, want to shake your tree". I know too much information, but really it just goes to show that my breasts were always a big deal in my world.
As I got a little taller and a filled out more with my weight, so did my chest. This pattern seemed to follow me all the way through motherhood. While so many people I know lost their chest after child bearing my chest reached a EE cup while pregnant and settled into a very full 34DDD on my frame of 5' 2".
I enjoy working out and found and amazing boutique gym that allowed for barefoot workouts like Barre and intense cardio training, I also started taking pole dancing and trix classes where I was inverted on a pole hanging by random parts of my body. I LOVED it! However, I was having a hard time finding the right sports bras to keep me comfortable as I worked out. I have said some of this stuff already in earlier blog posts, but as I was preparing for surgery I came across these sports bras that have names like: tata tamer, hullabraloo and vava voom. I still had these in my closest even after my reduction surgery. I guess it was still hard to say goodbye to something that has been such a major part of my since I was ten years old.
I arrived at the Breast Center around 10:30 am with my husband and my mom was already waiting there for me. We were just waiting for my friend Joanna, of Joanna Grace Photography to arrive to photograph this all for me. Somehow I seemed to be the only one not really worked up or bothered by everything that was about to unfold. I checked in at the desk and was brought back to get changed into a pink gown so that I could get an injection into my right breast near my nipple to light up the path of my lymph nodes so that the surgeon would know which one to biopsy.
I left my mom and husband in the lobby to wait while I went through this. Once I came out we met with a nurse practitioner to go over all the care I would need following surgery - including stripping and draining my drain tubes which my husband would be in charge of. Following this discussion I was walked up to the 3rd floor where surgery would take place around 12:30 pm.
It's almost time......