Little did I know how emotional this process was going to be for me! As I walked down the hall in Regions Hospital to imaging I had a very strong emotional flashback to Emily's first MRI while she was at Gillette. This wasn't her first MRI, but I think the 2nd one that happened to be when she was in the PICU. I got dressed into my almost see through gown and sat down to get my IV started for the contrast that would be injected mid-way through the test. It took 3 tries on my crappy veins to get an IV - ouch! This is pretty common for Emily too, so immediately I felt empathy for her. Then, I was brought into the same MRI room (there are four, I believe) that Emily was in. The sound, smell and the unknown all came flashing back in that instance. I'm not sure these emotional flashbacks will ever go away. Same thing happened when I visited a friend at United and walked past the hall to the NICU. Amazing how certain senses can trigger such strong emotional responses.
The MRI was loud, but somehow I could still hear my heart pounding with anticipation. All I could think about the whole time was "will they find more cancer or not?" I already knew that I still wanted to go through with a double mastectomy, but knew the results of my MRI would determine how soon that might be. As the 30 minute test came to an end, I shuffled back to the dressing room and quickly left the hospital.
I felt like it was years before I got the results, but in reality it was only about 48 hrs. I got a call Thursday afternoon from, Amy (MD) who shared with me that they did not find anymore DCIS, but that they did find a 9 mm fibroadenoma. This is typically not a big deal at all and they are considered benign. However, the fact that I am in my 30's and it is 9 mm in size puts me at a increased risk by 17% for invasive breast cancer. I told Dr. Amy that I was not interested in Tamoxifen, radiation or a lumpectomy. I mentioned that my end goal is a double mastectomy with reconstructive surgery, but that at this time I was going to wait for a little while.